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SEPTEMBER REVISITED
Have not written in a while,here is a sum up of some stuff.ie ...consolidation

Saw the Chagall exhibit at the SFMOMA...i love him,so many insane folk elements added,he is like a modernist H.Bosch,j/k

I wrote a silly paper about my cat in English,what am I 15!?

Well well well...I found out something cool.

The Slav/Balt God of thunder Pernun is further evidence of the old pre christian Gods being in everyday linguists. well. ...so take for example english...we speak a German based language (Brits are anglo Saxons...as in saxony germany) and so our 5th day of the week is named after Thor (Thundergod) Thursday or Thors day...In Latin/Italian it is Giovedi for Jove ..ie:Jupiter/Zeus another God of Thunder

In Slavic the same day of the week (Thursday) is Prendan (For Pernun!)

I saw "Winged Migration" with the ever so lovely Ritz...it was such a great film,winged gliders followed geese and psycho storks across Europa,and Asia...with the perspective of the birds.Also avalanches and the sort were in full sway.

on a less dignified note,I played pettteca with the Brazillians at my work today as well...it is a game like volleyball ,exept it is a peice of rubber with 4 feathers on it.I think it is originianlly a South American Indian game...

I am doing catering jobs for John over at the Brazillian pizzeria,the pay is good and tis fun.

Found out drinks over at the Raleighs pub near my house are actually very cheap...(3 smackers for a guiness)...ive lived near their for 6-7 yrs and never knew...namely because its a college bar,and never ventured in.

Been watching mad amounts of Red Dwarf and Robotech,bliss.

Cynthia came over with Ryan,and we had a great conversation.Borges came up as a referall.

Met some cool cats,a girl named Catherine who is a phd historian student at Stanford,listens to Black Metal and has taken the train in Mongolia/Russia/Rumania!!!!and has the Japanese thunder god tattooed on her back!Also met Jeanette and her friend in LA Susan,both very talented artist types.Susan is a great photographer,and we will be trading CDs,im looking forward to it,mostly 1930-40s style musica,i think.

Im re-reading Painted Bird,I gave a copy of this book to Cynthia,I wonder if she will think im nuts.

I found a really funny link to Battle Beasts...an old 80s toy line,its so funny http://www.ugo.com/channels/freestyle/features/battlebeasts/

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NYC trip notes:
Just went on a trip to NYC.... ...ok here is a bit of cultural anthropoplogy/im sleeping in my bed in staten island,and wake up to this bit of Guido conversation outside my window

1st guido (attempting to make fun of his friend) "YO!hey...you know if you watch Sex in the City,you know what it is equivellent to"

2nd Guido "What!"

1st Guido "Watching a gay porno"

.....oronzo tosses and turns in his bed to this insanity....

Williamsburg is a hipster colony,no longer polish...just 20 somethings in trucker hats.I ate the best polish food in Greenpoint.Place had a stag head...Borsht was 1.50.Pieroshkis 3.00,blintzes 3.00 etc...Had a total Polish gangster waiter to...with a long womans earing ,haha...he was hung over,as he had his head in his hands,in between serving,whilst sitting and drinking soda.Went to Met...they had Mesopotamian exhibit,with LAMASU statues!!!!!!from the Lourve!Nuts!

ok so when the NYC blackout (actually from NY to Detroit to N Canadia) hit 2 days ago i was at a bus-stop...not knowing a blackout had hit.no bus came...a psycho serial killer seeming dude was at the bus-stop w/me...trying to make conversation (i just stared at him and told him to piss off)...finally i get on the bus,ride for 20min and go only 2 blocks...people are saying a nuclear reactor blew up...and i saw TANKS were rolling down the city street...TANKS!!!!!I thought a nuclear reactor had blown up....i was kind of depressed.Like ,aw great now this is all i need Chernobyl style nuclear poison....what are all my Sit ups and push ups good for now.I had to contact Anshuman to find out it was only a blackout....Yet another moment in feeling ones own mortality.Oha and my aunts lady friend got assaulted on the brooklyn bridge,whoo hoo...lets all be neigbours eh?

Im now back in Cali and im in NYC mindset...everything is so slow here lol,but in NY its to fast...im caught in 2 worlds haha.

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MOUNTAIN MAN BREAKFAST
Got a 200 dollar credit at amoeba,for selling a bunch of crappy cds...i got Die Nibliung on DVD (5hrs silent fritz Lang),Devils backbone,season 1 of stranngers w/candy,Arsenal (Ukraine),No mans land (Bosnia),Fires on the Plain (Nippon) ,Dagon (Lol),Nausicca of the wind, and more

going to NYC on a trip i bought my parents presents. for pappa i got an old vintage bicycle racing shirt he was bike racer still rides and for moms i got this 70s looking barbarella style white and red lamp unique presents will always do the job id rather buy nothing than stupid stuff

Had a mountain man breakfast in a potugese resturant built into a cable car...mnn i am still tasting it.Ham eggs cheese....mnn

oh and i am going to be getting my degree in history this fall!!! (IE:graduating)...imagine that.

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JOVE IS MY BROTHER
Saturday, July 19, 2003

I went to a crazy Fashion show warehaus partay...it was weird sort of like a hipster rave...if you can imagine,we all got so dehydrated later i filled my 40oz with water and it was like we were in the desert and i had just received a flask...

i was the life bringer,lol...

oh and before that i was at a Filipino potluck,this guy had a fred perry shirt on(skinhead shirt that apparently hipster kids now wear...wtf!?) and i drunkenly called it a perry ellis!hahhaha..oh and CCAC (art college) i confused with SCA...haha (Society for creative anacrhonisms)...to funny!

Thor: jove is my brother!Mine eyes are the lightning... the blows of my hammer bring in the earthquake!

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THE ARCHERS WAND
Friday, July 18, 2003

hmn

red dwarf ,callabrese sausage, massage chairs....me like

ok the berk mueseum has these giant lights that are 15feet snowflakes lit up...you then sit in these massage cahirs from Japan that are crazy...they are actually simulator chairs that do the whole massage..including neck lower back,pounding ,kneading...so weird...and then it lats 15 minutes and you stare at these lights...lol

I also bought a 18 dollar bag of Callabrese Sausage....it is so good,it is similar to the sausage you get on the east coast in a sausage and pepper sandwich.I made a great sausage tomatoe sauce ...mmmn.

Been watching Red Dwarf...to brilliant! :)

Also ordered a hawk headed saber...I am reading "the last 100 days" the last 100 days of ww2...it is brilliant...full of insanity and terror as the red army advance though central europe.

funny thing a girl at a bar took a photo with me as she said i looked like vin deisel...WTF?! me? lol is it because i have a shaved head and a roman nose....lol...well whatever,guess i need to gain antoher 100 lbs

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ALOE VERA?
I bought a gallon of Aloe Vera Juice WTF?! lol

Went to Tap Plastics...quite an awsome ordeal,and dropped a gallon of carlo rossi ghetto ass wine on me foot ;P

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UKRANIA
Wednesday, June 11, 2003

Ryan is sitting on my couch playing Bass fishing video games...lol

i helped my mexican neighbor - a lil old lady bring up her groceries...im a good boy scout,lol

I just finished Reading "BAbi Yar" about the german occupation of Kiev in WWII....1 out of 2 people were butchered...and the wierd german attitude torwards slavs is so insane....I am now reading about Ukrainian rebels from 1600-1800.

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In the skin of BEAR
Friday, June 6, 2003

I am reading russian novel Babi Yar,about attroicites in ukraine/russian during ww2,also i am listening to tons of slav black metal (Temnozar,nomans land ,ashen light,butterfly templesevernyc vrat etc...)

I painted my couch black /red /black with special paints...ahh so good!it is so chic.

Walked down telegraph and met a girl named mami,well a woman actually (36),shes very interesting ,later I went to a bonfire with Nicole,it was on ocean beach along great higway...ok what is up with sf and its super generic names...OCEAN BEACH...GREAT...HIGHWAY...its not even like oh i dont know Green bay,instead we are bay area..lol

ok the lyric of the moment...this goes out to cutie Shei...whom i dedicate this to ;P ,although she is into italian wedding line dancing lol.This is a total heathen ancient slav/rus song to Velez god of agriculture,bears and bison!It is sung very viking style,so epic...i love it.It is sung in broken english as well :)

In the Skin of Bear By Nomans Land (Russia)

-Golden Rye waits in the fields-For the Harvest coming up-Man is waiting for sunrise-Bears crown to try on -WIND BENDS RYE SPIKES TO THE GROUND (i originally thought this lyris was - crush your Christ God to the ground ,which is epic in itself)-This time crops are ripen well-Grains are falling like a gold-To the den of BEAR-The hymn of bearskins will be sung-By their children-And when curtain time will come-By children of their children-Let the heart to prompt a term-When it is time to make a choice-And to cloth like King of Wood-Feel in the skin of a bear.

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LEPERS AND CUTE LASSIES
Tuesday, June 3, 2003

ok so,im with mike and he is showing me spetnatz slavic fighting moves as we are walking to a bar,and....seriously this bum wants to fight us (We were kind of scary looking that night to),and the bum is covered in sores and bleeding with no shirt on!Total Leper! Geegads ,lol

Went to some bars later and drank outside for the most part,lol.

Oh and on saturday i went to spengers with Vanessa and Nicole and we got rounds of free drinks (i think the bartenders hot on either Nicole or Vanessa).Wound up going to a party where i got covered in lipstick and kisses,....good for the ego i must say...lol.Me and Nicole and Vanessa then went back to my house and crashed whilst eating fried shrimp covered in melted cheese,ah what bliss....whilst watching Viva Variety and looking at COLORS magazine :)

On thursday i was throwing out my garbage and met my next door neighbor Kim...we wound up going to cat club and hanging out the next day as well.Funny,i am good at meeting my neighbors..."Excuse me is that grey poupon!" lol

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DAS MODULAR COUCH!
Wednesday, May 28, 2003

Got lunch for me and Anshuman,at a real Japanese ramen house in Berkeley had buttered corn ramen, their must have been a whole stick of butter in that savory dish, my stomach and throat and esophagus felt coated the whole day...in a pleasant way :)

Wow,i stopped by a salvage yard and got the best find ever ,a total Modular/modernist airport style couch for 80 bucks...got it in deepest Oakland salvage yard ,as opposed to the yuppie urban ore berk...it would have been like 300 dollars their, and at an art deco furniture shop 600-1000 bucks .The junkyard dude even drove me with it to my hose in his beat up pickup. Couch even comes apart with rivets making it mobile as well...i am in heaven. Was up till 5 am scraping rust off etc.. then woke up at 8 am to go to a cinema with Charmagne

I saw Cremaster 3 with the ever so lovely Charmagne...we then had sushi.Had a fun time shopping in the castro.She is a cool bean.

Later went record and clothes shopping got some great imperial guard of the future style outfits ,haha...total fencer look.

I used to fence ; P Hungarian saber

I went to amoeba and got a copy of Aye Carmella,and German newsreels of 1944 (For only 3.95!? wtf...wow).I saw a super cute girl in the reggae section, haha..so i go and talk to her, but it is reggae...so i look through the Maytails 1960s reggae/SKA from jamaica...prob the best choice haha.

Made dinner for Ryan and Nicole later that evening...a very good dish of Fettuccini con Pomodoro e carne ,ah...a real tomato sauce!

crazy japanese cat outfits!So cute

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PORSCHE CRASHED.....
Saturday, May 24, 2003

As Anshuman and I (as well as ryan and john) were heading back to ebay bad news. Anshumans beloved 1974 porsche was totaled last nite,at like 4am.Please give him your support,as this car was very special to him,and i am sure the insurance wont do squat, because its such an old car..Nobody was hurt to bad (thank god).But it makes you realize your mortality,i must say.

When the cops came,they are all like "You need an ambulance ,you need an ambulance"and like thats it,im like"no,but...its not like i am ok!..."

Damn police,its the same if your a victim of a crime,they dont prevent the crime,they come after the fact (police officer:…What, oh your gf was raped and you stabbed...You need an ambulance?huh,huh?,you need an ambulance?),yet if you need a license to have something petty like tear gas or a stun gun for defense...geez.The whack jobs who hit were some total fucking ren fair geeks as well...i wanted to kill them!I then walked home,ran into some friend of mine wandering the streets at 5am,wtf?!I looked like a total brawler skinhead by the time i got home ,because the blood from my head was pumping and therefore ,more red...haha,and all these crackheads were like...woah.

Anshuman gave me a wonderful old 1939 pocketwatch from India...for my post bday

pics of crash

I never received my boar spear from ebay,what is one to do :(...however my mom just got her mothersday present! :) in the mail,i got her a TV with a vcr built into it ! Because i knew she would never get around to buying something for herself...and i would like for her to be able rent a nice cinema piece every now and again.

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HEATHEN PRIDE
Wednesday, May 21, 2003

Went to Mikes hose,we drank scotch,cider and Mead out of a drinking horn!...Hail!

I saw Aggolach play last night,very good...although i got hit in the eye by the drumsick hurtiling my way!i actually broke down and bought the long sleeve tshirt...even though i never wear t shirts.It has their name logo done in twisted archaic root,and a stag sipping from the water,then an arm sheild with a stag head!Truly my kind of shirt even if i can not wear it.It also says heathen pride on the back with a list of tour dates,haha!!!!!!They came on 2nd though!Because some whack ass local band "ludicra" headlined...whats that all about?popularity bullshit!

My grandmother 90th birthday is coming up :) she lives in lecce italy and looks ony 65!she cooks dinner everyday for 10+ people,after being in the farm all morning.

Went to Sarahs work ,it is nuts...looks like an internet romper room ,she does flash design.

I had lunch with Charmagne,got Dim Summ (including Scallop Dim Sum) We ate in the civic center park :),although i think nothing further is going to come of us,it was still nice to meet this scooter ladden lovely girl....alas

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FILIPINO BLOOD PUDDING
Thursday, May 15, 2003

Waiting for my next class.......hmn what else,ah yes...im going to go right now and eat some blood pudding (Denaguan..iknow thats prob spelled wrong) at that Filipino resturant in the ghetto!I love peasent food! ;) oh and Agollach is playing on Tuesday!!!!!!

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SLAVA! SLAVA! SLAVA!
in class teacher brought in spiced wine (Nutmeg,etc) and homemade bread.

jawohl!

Later went to corpse cleaners house in a desolate area of SF,he had homemade stout and Mead,i took home a bottle of the mead(,i plan on using it when i make dinner for this girl i like) Mike apt totally reminds me of brooklyn,the run down area of brooklyn i totally did not even feel like i was in SF.Wires,walls,paints,smells,apt layoutTrain style apt),stove ,sink etc...total park slope style before it bacame a trendy spot (Park slope was ghetto).My grandma had an apt like that and the slumlord burned down her place i shit you not....anyways.Their was even an insane abandoned building next to mikes hose with a clown face...it looked like an old freak show...it was so fucking surreal.

Mike burned me a bunch of Slav/Rus Black metal with lots of folk elements...one that stands out in particuler is "Butterfly Temple" they have whistles claps trumpets and a crushing feeling of Pagan Rus! (# slavas said in succesion is = to Hail!)

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AVANTI GLORIOSO SCHIERE!
Monday, May 12, 2003

i have had several dates with a girl...whom i am growing fonder of by the minute,I am in good spirits. she is a literary/design type...and just so nice and interesting and funny/witty/sharp...not to mention stylish and very very beautiful./and brilliant

school is kicking my ass....looks like i am not going to go to italy this summer...as summer school beckons its ugly head,but i may go on tour with The Librarians again as a roadie...if i can get the time off.Oh and i ate blood pudding with ryan at this Fillipino place in the ghetto area of 6th and market.It was good.

Avanti Glorioso Schiere!!!! (Rapidly-Strongly passes the Glorious warband)

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THE MATADOR
Wednesday, May 7, 2003

went with my friend nicole and ryan to spengers,damned place i used to work at ....hate hate hate.

Anyways i get a bloody mary and popcorn shrimp,and the shrimp portion has been reduced to 1/2 but still 11 bucks...wtf!

saw librarians with extreme elvis,elvis attacked me immediatley,and called me his friendster it was funny.Than elvis peed on people got naked etc...hes out of control stayed up for 48 hrs writing papers...8 more to go help me lord!haha

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I LIFT MY BOAR SPEAR TO YOU!
Wednesday, April 16, 2003

Here are Some Birthday Photos

and some more pics..

I ordered the italian film from 1937 "Scipio Africanus" about the roman Scipio and his defeat of Hannibal,this film was made during 30s era deco/futurist Italy and extras in the film (who filmed it in Libya) were sent to Spain to fight in the spanish civil war...crazy,and what a crazy find...on dvd no less

Haha...just thought i would share this I was at a party talking with this lassie,and she and i are hitting it off...so later we start taliking about baths...and how wonderful they are...she tells me of salt baths ,bubble baths etc...Im a lil tanked right at this point so i make a silly sardonic joke i say

"Do you know what the best type of bath is?You make the water hot...very hot.Then you take some chicken bullion,cut up some carrots,cut up some celery and potatoes,then you get in and put some chicken in it,than ....etc!"

she did not think it was funny,she was all,"uhmm its nice to meet you..."hahah!!!oh and i am bidding on a boar spear

on ebay The seller says

"For 200 years, the boar spear reigned supreme as the staff weapon of choice in the forests and often the battlefield as well. Only the invention of reliable firearms in the 18th century could fade its renown. It would have disappeared altogether if not for the decadent tastes of the Northern European nobility. To them, hunting with a firearm was a pale substitute for the thrill of hand to hand combat in the forest with nothing but a spear. Now you too can enjoy the same excitement with Special Projects modern recreation of this classic spear. Cold forged out of medium carbon SK-5 steel and heat treated to a spring temper, the massive blade is designed to flex under stress instead of breaking. It has an overall length of 18 1/2" and weighs a whopping 11/4 pounds! What's more, each blade comes fully sharpened to a utility edge and features a sturdy reinforcing rib to make it as stiff as possible for maximum penetration. The spear head comes with an extra stout premium ash shaft."

yes i to can enjoy the same exitement...hahaha!!!!

i am also bidding on a three Thors Hammer Pendants

,Norse would wear these in opposition to the christian cross on their necks,at some point the christianized Vikings mixed the hammer and the cross intertwined.

Icelandic Thor's Hammer: This dragon headed hammer was used as a transition from the hammer to the cross as the Viking's converted to Christianity. It is based on a stray field find from Iceland. 2 inches by 1 inch. Danelaw Thor's Hammer: This small pewter Thor's hammer was cast from a lead original in our private collection. It dates from the 9th-10th centuries and was found in Yorkshire, near the Viking capital of England--Jorvik, in the heart of the Norse ruled Danelaw. 1 inch tall.

Im a wierdo,i dont have a car but i have a boar spear and a a mammoth bust of Achilles,haha

oh and i have started acting in the film...i am a star,no?hehe the music is man machine by kratwerk,we have shot for 2 days and have about 6 minutes of footage,oh my,being an actor is not that easy

the What do I do if I find an Anthrax album in my collection? Questions and Answers

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APRIL 2nd A DAY THAT WILL LIVE IN INFAMY......
My Birthday party April 2!

Hurah,my birthday was a success.Initially I was worried because mass amounts of frat/college types were at the Albatross bar,and were to numerous to count.But they all disapeared once the awful bluegrass band was finished playing.haha

the most ecclectic group of friends arrived at my party, from the Brazillians who i work with, to Lupo ,to SF indie kids ,and lots lots of good friends!

I received 2 books on byzantine warfare from ryan and matthew,a M Gira (swans) CD from Ben and Victoria (AKA NIKE) and from my boss at the pizzeria John i received "attack and retreat/il brava e il gente" which is a film about the italian invasion of russia which is in itself a Obscure out of print,joint italo-russian production, also made post war,obscure but for me intense subject,and co-starring a young peter falk...aka Columbo!, ,roman coins from Lupo,and some wine from Chris,and a book of john Cocteau plays from the other chris...+ presents from my mommy and daddy ;)

damn good party,i notice i only have birthday parties,when i arrange them,and when I am single...haha,everytime i am in a relationship....no bday party....i find that funny

So where am i in life now...almost done with school,going to teach abroad possible,either Cracow Poland or Tokyo.....As far as Ca is concerned , an email i sent today sums it up pretty well:

"I do love it out here in Ca however i feel retired in contrast to NY,i am glad i grew up in NY and live in CA as opposed to the other way around.It made me who i am and lets me appreciate the pace of Ca,it also gives me a cutting bite in Ca"

I think this sums it up well,(Hi nini,if you are reading this :) i will write more later for now here is something funny

Europena vs American Hating styles aka :Europes Hate is a Smart Hate

Eritrea:the Prussians of Africa

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GERMANIC PUNK CLUBS
Tuesday, April 1, 2003

I just got ran into my old teacher prof D'Agostino,whom i greatly admire.Then He looks me up and down and looks at my futuristic robotech style jacket as we are talking and he says to me ...

"You look like you go to these germanic punk clubs and dance the polka."

damn

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AS KEEANU REEVES WOULD SAY...WOAH
Tuesday, April 1, 2003

Wow yesterday was an insane day for me.....

I sent out invites for my birthday party tomorow (April 2/Wodans-day/same bday as charlemagne btw)

http://www.oronzo.com/bday.htm

and inncendentally sent an email to my serious ex gf,lo and behold i run into her at a ramen house at 11pm after not seeing her for almost a year (all this on the same day!).It was a moving conversation that i will not disclose here,but all i can say is...whoa.(think of..hmn,say keeano reeves in a blockbuster acting moment)

I then went to the " phone booth " a bar in SF with my boss from the pizzeria.I got hammered,(their were 3 dollar cosmos their...now is that a manly drink to get hammered on or what?haha..)I had such a fun time.

My friend Francis is putting me in his indie film,i am to play a disgruntled nihilistic scientist,i also have to kiss an argentinan girl in 1 scene,oh my...

Laugh and enjoy

Kim Jong II's LiveJournal Entries

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Thursday, April 10, 2003

Well i have not written in a while but a zillion things have happened (btw:i am not refering to the old cartoon zillion,you silly willy!)First off tomorow i am going to be in a film...1st day of shoot.Hope its fun,2nd my boss is gonna try to get me a barback job at the albatross!I hope so......

Last fri these 2 horrible rude girls came over,friends of danh...they were abominations...humans no longer have concepts like honor,people are products of EGO.

They come to my house,my sanctuary...as strangers,then 1st thing they say is...you have food?.I say "sure i will cook you some pierogies" (as opposed to say...potato chips)...then when i return,i serve it with a mustard sauce,then and this is the clincher, ....they shut my music off as i am serving it...i say "excuse me did you just shut my music?",they said "yes i didnt want to be in a tomb in here" (I had dark ambient stuff playing)...i say,"well if you did not like it well you can just say something...i would have put on billy holiday or something more palletable..."grrrr ,it is the principale.They just got up and did it...They then complain about my food to each other...i then got them the hell out of my house...you see this is a betrayal of the ancient concept of Xenia,it is what the entire book of the odyessey is about.the betrayal of hospitality.In countries like Moldavia and Albania,such an intrusion is cause for a blood feud.I then ran into lupo,we got beers and watched the film "attack and retreat"We came tothe conclusion that the italian communist party was heavily involved in the productiion (circa 1960)

Next day i went to 3 parties 1st was at 3pm an outdoor bbq.then to oakland unk show,saw this parody silly band called jewdriver,they were a fake jewish skinhead band (members of schlong in it) and 1/2 the members were japanese girls.They threw manishevitz and chick comicks at the audience,they were a jewish power band,haha...

then i went to a lipstick and cigarettes party on the upper haight.It was very fun and i got tanked..... me at party + more

hmnn....what else?...cant think of it i will tell ya later .

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WE GO DIZCO!
March 30, 2003

Crazy party night ...oh man

Ok we are all travelling in anshumans 1974 porshe...5 of us...the porshe fits 2 comftorably,keep this in perspective.haha.

First i wind up at Anshumns cousins party,and it was soooo wholesome as to be wierd!It was a teacher party.A girl hit on my friend by saying

"your tall"-Then to me "your like the 2nd tallest..."- im like...uhm im only 5 foot 9....ok... -then to my friend danh..."You look smart"

so freaking wierd!so funny.then this other girl ,was a power tool sales lady (door to door) who was telling us how she goes to berkeley to buy "Books on cd"...it was really a moot point for her...and she was hitting on danh...haha.

Then we go to a 2nd party which was a slightly seedy party,(i gave the girls,a very nice kiss,you know ;)haha...anyways,it was a weird night out.

Then we go to this 3rd party on the mission,and it is crackhead hell.a psycho with a golf club was walking around!WTF!This one crackhead was fucking with everyone outside,eventually he got in fisticuffs,would leave and come backwhen he tried it for the umpteenth time,talking all this "white people are racist babble" everyone started to "BOO!" him

boo boo boo

he actually seemed to get embaressed and it worked.

I then tried to go to a 4th party but the address i went to was buffalo exchange clothing store,haha.

We all then go to el farolittos burrito place.Its nuts their at 2 am,everyone from all walks is their.Local mexican laborers,drunk club kids,homeless dudes,cops getting tamales.etc..So anyways a beer spills on this mexican and it looks as if a fight might break out,so the fat security dude walks over....he just looks at the guys who spilled the beer and they leave

The crazy thing was they looked like they were a brazzilian rugby team...6 of them leave..and they are gigantic,and they are very polite about it....whoa.Just got up and left

we all had to move aside they were so wide.

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THE PASSION INVOKED
Friday, March 28, 2003

ok...so yesterday was total endorphins for me!

Firstly,i am listening to "Stillevolk"all day,this is a French/German Loraine medieval style band it invokes so much passion in me,I feel the glory of Gaul-ish chariots flowing across the ancient lands,A gaulish celt chieftain with his flowing golden locks and mustache, eagle helmet glistening in the blood red sun.And when crackheads try to talk to me ,whilst my walkman is playing this glory,i just feel such power,haha.

i listen to as I sit on a muni train and meet the loveliest girl,we hit it off so well.We are going to have a cafe,then we get off at our stop ,she leaves and then comes back and she tells me she has a boyfriend but still wants to hang out,well "thats great i tell her" and say

"of course you have a bf,you are such a beautiful girl" and i meant it!I hope we become good friends

It was really sweet.She is all into sewing and fashion,and lived in NY.Whenever i meet a great girl like that they are always taken...alas,she has 1 lucky bf however,i hope he knows that

Then i go to to my Balkan class,and its 3 hours of the Greek civil war and Greece in ww2,along with all the Greeks in my class,its a total grad school style class.I am so into it!oh man,I leave the class,and tell my classmate

that the class was a total adrenaline rush,haha,

they are like,

uhm no,hahha

class was sooo good

Then i wind up going to pop scene and mark gardener of "Ride"is their playing an acoustic set,and i am so annoyed, my endorphin high goes away,and i think to myself,this music,invokes nothing in me,its so typical,just dude on a giutar....bleah,haha

Later we are outside and im talking to my friend anshuman (Who arranged the soccer game between us and Belle N’ Sebastian 1 year ago),and mark gardener is outside,i say

Do you want me to arrange an interview with him for you?

and he says,no hes not all that,i think mark gardener heard,haha.I kind of felt a lil bad though.

I found this wonderful sausage shop in lower haight.I ate a chicken cherry sausage and a duck with juniper berry sausage....i bonded with a bouncer their from the pop scene club about sausages,haha

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BRISCLAVET,ZE GARWALF.NO?
Wednesday, March 26, 2003

Bought 2 cds today

1)Symbal : we drink-hymns and counsel of anglosaxon heathenry

2)stillevolk: satyr (Mideival styilized tribute to bachus)

I have been writing papers...ugh

well.i wrote a paper about werewolves.It was a early French piece from early middle ages it was was called "Brisclavet" (Brisclavet is a french word for werewolf descended from the Norse garwalf),i compared it to later era werewolf peices. later ones ,used werewolves to show mans bestial side, but brisclavet and other earlier werewolf tales showed werewolves in a sympathetic way...outcastes from society and it made me see parrallel to early norse warriors called berserkers...they would go mad in battle only wearing wolfskin and when they went back into society they would go crazy: they were followers of wotan/odin (He who unleashes mead and the berskergang),i read about a berserker who ripped the nanny of his child’s ,head off for a simple ball accident in iceland then i contrasted it to Vietnam veterans who when returned to usa and had let lose their darker bestial side in the war (ear and nose neckelace,pcp,lsd,brutality etc..) then returned into society.

After all folktales are a from of psychology for their respective era.

i then went to the arrow bar last night with mike who was showing me russian spetznatz fighting techniques.haha.Met a girl at the bar who is greek/japanese mix!Also me another girl who had apparently wrote an essay about me for a homework assingment 2 years ago,by seeing me in the cafe.Haha ,I left the bar with two girls and went then to a drum and bass club.Got super toasted.They tried to start fights with the local thug denziens of lower haight,gegadz,i would have been the one smahed up,not them.Got home 1 day later,haha now i must write a grammaticaly correct paper (lord help me!haha) on the play 6 degrees of seperation.

Here is a funny joke from the death in june list regarding the war on iraq

"At least Hitler didn't call it Operation Polish Freedom."

inncidently,the signifigance of ignoring the UN,is similar to the ignoring of the 1939 league of nations....remember that.

The Road to Perdition: America 2000 - 2005Occupied Texas, former US

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THE JASMINE TREE HELD IN 1 GLORIOUS ARM!
Tuesday, March 25, 2003

Sean goblins little brother came over. He is now 22,hes not little anymore, haha. He is working for Cutco (that is to funny,hes selling knives door to door )and he’s in a band called the Cuts who are blacklisted (as is extreme elvis) from many venues in the bay area,infamy!

Next day went to Sean Goblins “non chalance” oakland art collective. He dj-ed some awesome 70s weird funk...really weird. Check out his site at www.goblinko.com He is a man of great art and works as a team with his wife Katie

I have a new pen pal from Nippon named Yuka ,she is a awesome photographer and poet. Her poetry is done in English and Japanese, that is difficult as euphanism culturally different,so to express the same feeling in translation is hard

On Friday not much happened.I watched Robotech “southern cross”.I love it. It is the deep level of robotech. Both humanity and the masters fighting over protoculture, when the parasitic invid (on the coatails) are referred to as a potential treat to both humanity and the masters.

On saturday I Went to 3 parties. Christian and his friend came by. Christian joined the rosicrutian order...crazy.

The 1st party had psycho 1970s psychedelic cartoons showing, it was at this art warehouse in oakland called compound I. So damn scary, those cartoons were yikes!Those psychedelic cartoons remind me of the goons from old popeye cartoons,or the cuckoo from old looney tunes...arrgh,yikes!

I was pretty toasted for Suzzanes party which was next,it was a KALX radio station party. Extreme Elvis played. They are funny,he is a big fat man who plays the late drug/food induced elvis,they are a punk band though.They Covered some circle jerks songs,as well as tons of elvis.He got naked and was sweaty...It was very funny.I was very toasted for the 3rd party,which was not so great. So i returned to the 2nd holding a tree of jasmine bud that i found (it had fallen off the original tree). Weird night.Oh and i have been watching this crazy old series called the sword of wayland,more on it later...just a hint Robin hoods patron is a stag headed man of the heathen forest and he weilds the sword of albion and fight the servants of the lightbringer...

Went to the Thai temple next morning ,was pretty hung over (i never get hung over) and ate Thai brunch (Pad Thai and super spicy beef!).the Thai temple is on Sundays,and you buy tokens then food,it supports their cultural center.It is funYou should all come!I also got a flatscreen monitor for my pc,and this leather jacket with a turtleneck style collar,I look like a WW1 Czarist cossack in it

The SF war protests are in full swing.They are happening every day,10s of thousands in the street.It is pretty crazy. Several people i know have been arrested.

alas....things are in dire straits. But the world continues to turn and mankind continues the same patterns it always has ,only the technology changes. Ask your local Algerian/Rwandan friend about it....or better yet go on a vacation in the congo.....their you will see what humanity is,and always has been. Mask your civilized behavior all you like,those Gap shopping/suv drivers will kill /torture/betray when water becomes scarce,just you watch.

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FILMING SPRING BREAK DURING WW2
Wednesday, March 19, 2003

Spring break has started am looking forward to the good times of writing 5...Yes 5 papers ,and with my stupendous typing skills (Can you not tell?),I can not fail.

hooray....

uh yeah...

Ok, so I went to the 10th aniv the club of death guild. Lot of people their, many with bad fashion taste. Not so fun, especially as I saw my ex with her new man.

Not so much a big deal,but not the greatest thing to see?However when I went downstairs I met a lovely, lovely, girl from sfsu ,whom i mistook for my bostonian friend,and she had a nice fashion sense,very chic:)

Me and Ryan watched the most funny movie ever "Windtalkers",with Nicholas Cage

(Nicholas Cage is a Coppola /incendintely he has been recently entered in the Italian American hall of fame/,he was in the decent captain Corellis Mandolin/actually the film wasless offensive to italians and to me than that damn book was).Its a W.W.II film about the taking of Saipan, with Navajo code-talkers.It was sooo bad.The weasley actor christian slater gets beheaded by a Japanese sword though (This would be the highlight),and Cage is a ridiculous super hero crazed type.

and john wu directed it!All his USA films are atrocious! They did have an authentic scene of a Nipponese Naval gun in a Mountain stronghold.The Japanese loaded the gun with 5 men per shell (Holding the shells with huge tongs),Later in the evening we watched Plunkett and Mclaine.This is a brilliant movie!

ok so i have this weird notion.After the epics like Ben Hur and Spartacus,all these hoaky roman/greek type movies came out in the bushel (Remember them...Medusa vs the son of Perceus etc..).Same with Braveheart (First Knight,Dragonheart...ugh!).

now with Saving Private Ryan...we get this mass produced ww2 genre films being made like U-571,Windtalkers,the horendous Jude Law stalingrad film"Enemy at the Gates"

...and haha..yes Pearl Harbor...so funny

these terrible films are so surreal,especially to a film and history buff such as myself

bleah

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NOVASTROVIA!
Thursday, March 13, 2003

Went to Angies going away party.She is moving to NYC.I also ran into Gina and Lara.Two lovely gals that I havent seen in years.

Next day Ryan came over, and we ate ribs (Cow ribs)at my house.I provided the Finnlandia vodka and Bavarian beer.But for the life of me,I could not remember how to toast in Russian/Georgian.

I could not beleive this, as it is second nature for me to know such things. I researched it and found out it is Novastrovia (i know this is spelled wrong,sorry).The Rus drink their Vod-tka with beer,(ie:they chase it down with beer).A Rus expression is...

"Drinking vod-tka without beer is like throwing money to the gales (Wind)

I finally got a CD walkman.I am in the future.I just need the appropriate sunglasses.

NOVASTROVIA!

Here is a present for you.Humour....

Algeria: The Psychos Will Inherit the Earth - by Gary Brecher

The Last Word on Van Damme Seanbaby at the top of his game..

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THIS IS #1 DISCO SENSATION,YES?
Monday, March 10, 2003

Have not written for a while know, I know. Well lets see. I just got back from a small tour to LA with the band 'the Librarians' .I was Roady-ing for them,and working the Merchandise table.It was fun.I got on stage to announce them, to the whack LA scenesters.I did my fake Latvian accent “This is number 1,disco sensation,from the Oakland region of the northern provine of California.They,very much will rock n roll”,etc..Finally met my LA friend Nancy,She is a great girl.We all hung out in the van after the show,and drank.I went to some LA record stores,and got this neo-heathen book/zine called “TYR”.edited by M.Moynihan.(Also got a gang of 4 and Kraftwerk pins ;)

So my impression of LA,is like being in a escalator at a mall,every chain store repeats itself every 4 miles,what a nightmare.I love SF much more than I did last week,haha.

I am using this new friendster. program on the pc.I like it ,as it works on the whole 6 degrees of seperation concept.Very very cool..

Back in SF:I met a cool fashion designer from Japan at SFSU.We went to a fashion show later in the week,it was all very cool .The clothes that were their were all very insane,hand made,and unfortunetly for me expensive.

Also went to a party in Berkeley and met a cool girl who has been to Kyrgistan ,she told me a funny story about how they give fermented mares milk as a sign of hospitality .It is always huge bowl.It is hard to make,and pretty unpleasant to the taste buds. I found that very funny,as this stuff (A traditional steppe warrior food,live off the horse) is thrust upon you.She said that regular horse milk,is actually really tasty,like cane sugar.But then they make it into this fermented curd.oh my!

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HEDGEHOGS OF TURKIYE
Monday, February 24, 2003

So my fairy tales class is kind of an ordeal,from7-10pm,teacher is a very very old man(But quaint and cute) and he just reads in olde english...but he stutters and is very slow...oh my! I went with Genee to the Hemlock yesterday,She is a cool kat.She convinced me to go to nordstrom rack,how funny.She lives in the hayes valley.It is such a cool little neighberhood,i am so jealous.We had Belgian fries,and she told me a funny story,when she was in Turkiye these little kids were playing toss the dead hedgehog at each other.It consisted of

1.some kids

2.some elastic

3.hedgehog of a dead stature/preferabley decomposing.

this is number 1 game!

Patrick arived in NY after missing 3 airplanes,what a procrastonator.Ive been using this weird friendster program,kind of funny,i can always just email my friends.Their must be some hidden magic i dont yet know

ok this is the funniest thing,my friend dan has this MAGIC 8 ball program (on the web,millions of people use it,as if it is fucking an oracle!)It is so weird,here are to samples of crazy questions people have asked it...

From Magic 8 ball:"Is the woman in the sex videos I downloaded my wife Holly? Is the woman in the sex videos I downloaded my wife Holly? Were these videos made during our marriage? Were these videos made before I met Holly? Who is the guy in the video having sex with my wife? Is my wife Holly the woman in the sex videos I have? Were these videos made after we were married? Were these videos made before our marriage?" etc..

one is even crazier,look at it in your own risk,involves greek/italian/turkish mafia questions!

also i ran into a classmate of an old class,kind of a homeboy dude,and he is all like"man what kind o style r u,i cant figure u out...then he introduces me to his gf and friends,it was funny. ---------------------------------------------------------

WORMS DWELL.....
Saturday, February 15, 2003

Valentines day has past,I had an ok time.No flowers (only a choc-olat,Ha) but someone put heart stickers on my door.Could it be the same person who left me a copper indian dish on my door a while back?,but I am solid flesh and can not be un wavered.Bravo Talked with my new canadian friend char,I am very happy to have met her,you meet few quality people these days.

Stayed indoors for most of the day, but in the evening I went out to a party and then to the club Fake.Fake was really fun,as few marina khaki ballcaps were their.

The best part of the evening was seeing this fake german leatherboy band play...It was so fun!They totally were trying to look like D.A.F.,and had leatherboy hats on,with speedos only and huge mustaches!it was so funny.I got a raise at work (2 dollar/hr increase!) and am on the deans list at school,so things are doing well for me.I am reading aesops fables right now,as well as history of the merovigian kings (ala charegmane)...ok here is a present for you Humboldt Squid,Destroyer of Mexico !

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I WANNA PIZZA PIE,SO SAID THE SHOTGUN....
Monday, February 10, 2003

hmn....someone accidently hit the silent alarm at my work.Cops busted in with shotguns,the brazillians froze.In brazil you expect to be shot 1st,questions later.Not a fun time....

Went with tomoko to get her ears punched to 8 guage earings.(not stretched),later went to a cool art show party in oakland.I saved a painting that got knocked down.Hurray for me,haha.Went to popscene on thurs.I had on my crazy robotech style near future jacket on.Fun time.!)

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THE BLIND GUARDIAN
Sunday, February 2, 2003

What a whacko week.

I am enrolling in my classes and have gotten some gems including "Balkan history 1500 AD to present". This class has only been available 4 times at S.F.S.U. and the teacher is a Greek who travels from San Jose state to teach this class ,he was also a U.N. observer in the Bosnian elections,wow!

I am also taking folkore classes.It was funny i tried to add this Greek literature class,but find out it is for the greek language dept.The point here is their was only like 5 people in the class.I felt really bad.This student in the class said...."just add it so they dont take it away from us"(minimmum enrollment)It was kind of sad. He said we will make you an honourary Greek ,haha.

I met this really pretty girl at sfsu who seemed kinda weird but hot and i was going to ask out,but when i continued to talk to her,and then her valley girl princess side showed itself.It was very funny.I was all

"Hello Bella ragazza!"

and she says in reply (Hardcore valley girl accent)..

"Whaaat does thatttt mean!oh my god!"...it was very funny.

On Tuesday i went to the beauty bar with Genee.Genee is a very nice Italian girl who reminds me of old photos of grandmas when they were young and pretty.She is kind of ethereal to me. On thursday I went to popscene ;where Johny Marr of the smiths was supposed to play an acoustic set.He flaked and just signed autographs.I let him do his thing and dizco danced instead.

On Friday i kept it local and went to a college party in Berkeley.Much to my horror and amusement ;their were a pool full naked college kids 30 or so full of naked orgiastic activity (including 2 of my friends who invited me; who were recently broken up...both talking to me nat seperate intervals,whilst naked,kind of akward)I was quite toasted and went into the DJ room.Met a nice LA girl (who had clothes on thank god!) who i will call in a few days.

On saturday i was all set to go to another berk party and then find out it is a frat party!Argh...i was so anoyed.So i went to SF,went to "club 16" ran into the Serbian girl Katerina she is fun to hang out with.I joked with her about the serbian techno folk gangster wife who was in the news,and how i want mp3s of it...she was all noooo its terrible!Later Chris car got broken into and my jaket and greek play was stolen...go figure.

Their was also this super creepy tarot reader who came by the club.My friend told him to fuck off,calling him an evil fuck, and kicked him in the ass.He said the fellow tried to curse people and had beetles in his beard.He seemd correct to be truthful....bad energy on that one.

Lyric of the Moment:Stand your ground ,its to late,the excise men are at gate!Jesus Christ they are drinking it straight!…in the hills of kallermana. (Irish traditional)!)

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MARTINIS AND MISANTHROPY
Wednesday, January 22, 2003

Saw "Come and See" at the roxie...my god what a roller coaster ride that movie is....pure empathy,including a psycho stork.I cant even tell you the degree to which i love this film,

From an email i sent

"Come and see was so absolutely insane…after it you just feel adrenalin and empathy for hours….my god what a film…and it is so representative of humanity throughout the ages…granted its about ww2 partisan/Byelorussia war…but it can equally relate to Bosnia recently and to mongol raids of the 1400s…humanity will always be of the same stature….and besides that it had psycho footage of storks…ha ha and lemurs…(very bacchus like")it is brilliance.

I then stopped by the arrow bar,crackheads and cops,not to inviting...so we went to the beauty bar,and lo and behold...a wonderful scene.I had a long island iced tea,even though i dont like gin or tequila...bartender gave it to me for 6 bucks to,nice of him.Anyways i met an indonesian model who came over to me,ill tell you after seeing that movie and then to be thrust into that enviorment was weird. salute...also my ex was thinking about giving me her old fiero...not sure if its a good idea or not...its a sexy car...but a potential money drain)

laugh and enjoy at hese crazy stories:

Hitler the D mode smiths fan

laugh and enjoy: footmen baptist film !

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BIANCA
Tuesday, January 21, 2003

Great great news am going to graduate the university by the summer, i may walk in may, Christ its taken long enough never thought i would see the day,now i must prepare to become a teacher. My new 2nd job at the pizzeria is kind of of a good feeling,very working class (i actually make preety good money to).Brazilians and Mexicans work their with me.Its a good feeling.

Saw this girl at popscene who looked like my ex shannon when she was 19...i was flabbergasted was going to talk with her and she completely dissapeared,it was almost like seeing a ghost.Very bizzare,almost like a phantom as if Shannon was dead.Im sure she is not, however I did meet a neat girl from L.A. who is all into death in june,futurism and film,i hope we keep in touch.

My favorite film "come and see is playing tonight,i got free tickets,i think me and corpse cleaner are gonna go (Funny man bites dog is playing the night after).I went to a funny party the other night,it was outdoors in the mission...it was freezing, Anyways my Irish friend PAT sees this old classic card,turned into an art car, so he talks to these indie kids about it, the 1 lame crew member pretends its her car to fuck w/him...so i fuck with her back, my tongue was as sharp as a rapier blade. She was all..."i named it bianca" I go "did you name it that because its black? Thats deep"....she got perturbed, haha. Also i met someone who knew the hand symbol for "Mithras"...go figure!End note:Tomoko is no more,she cares less about me or my feelings.Its for the best,im not going to be a romantic lab rat.!)

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NIPPON PUNK/RUSSIAN OPERAS/PIZZERIAS
Thursday, January 16, 2003

Wow,had an insane time last night.I rode my bicycle into deepest Oakland ,to see a Japanese punk band called "Peelander-Z" (this band was once on an upright citizens brigade sketch-it was a a parody of jazzercise) It was so crazy, they came out in crazy costumes (Bright yellow super hero,bright blue wrestler,and bright red indian cheif).They were funny and energetic, yet few were in the audience.But we all had fun.

At one point they gave me the guitar and dragged me onstage while the singer harrases the crowd.After the show Chris and I went back to my place quite drunk and happy,and this crackhead yells at him hey shorty hey shorty...so i just walk straight up to him grinning crazily....and say "whats up man?!"and he shakes my hand and says nothing...haha, typical California bullshit. He wouldnt pull that shit in NYC. Chris gave me a copy of a 60 page play he wrote!

I got a part time job, at a pizzeria. Yep stereo typical Italian job...haha,i also know the owner of the pizzeria...yet another stereotype haha.I bought 2 films today,The Russian Opera of Prince Igor which i watched after the show drunk......crazy! (opera is about his campaigns against the Kumans a turco-mongol steppe nomads) .I also bought the documentry of Attila 74 "the Rape of Cyprus"Norm McDonald cancelled a show in san jose to be replaced by the leviathan horror Pauly Shore....!Madonna mia!Going to a futurist Fashion show tonight…hopefully it will be good,maybe not…but only eagles dare!!)

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ROOTS(...as in carrots and such)
Friday, January 10, 2003

Funny,ive been super broke lately,so ive beeen eating lots of carrots,onion,and potatoes.In other words...Roots.

Funny,this is the old world way to be broke and eating,as oposed to eating cheap junk food poison like ramen,mcdonalds,and other shite.I cant help but laugh at myself...I am good with my peasent roots.

IAlso been bringing a flask of finnlandia vod-tka to bars...haha,its a soviet flask to.Im discreet about it however ;)...dont wanna be rude and all.

Tomoko mentioned she wanted to hear some black metal,(she has lots of shoegazer thrown upon her,which she likes but gets a lil tired of).I found this to be very endearing,much to my detriment.

oronzos obsession of the momnent: the Einherjar blowing their trumpets of victory"!)

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HISTORICAL SPIRITS
Thursday, January 9, 2003

I have come to the realization that i have a beyond normal level of Empathy, but not on petty individual level...more on a grand scheme- of the scope of history. When i talk of history and read history...i feel almost possessed by it.

The level of human insanity and suffering that our earth’s soil has consumed is insurmountable. I think this is what makes me a realist noticed this when i was talking to Tomokos new roommate about ancient pagan Latvia...and he was actually interested (being of Latvian decent)...i got so into it,i really was like "woah their Oronzo...are you ok!"to myself. And then i was talking of Prince Alexander Nevsky of Novograd and how he defeated the Swedes, Teutonic order and negotiated with the Mongols...and i then shouted "He was just a prince"almost in a hysterical manner....what the hells wrong with me,haha.

I did so good in school this semester. A- in Greco/Roman mythology A- in 1930s politics,A- in City Dynamics,A- in Modern US studies,B+ in Ancient Epic tales...

Oh and here is a funny story,i was wearing these black zippered (long zippers straight up and down the legs)parachute pants from the 80s (Breakdancing pants),and this girl at arrow was hitting on me and says...i love your pants, what label are they....i then had to say "why they are bugle boys"like in that old commercial where the girl in the porsche drives up to the fellow hitchhiking in the desert,and asks the same question...to funny, because since they were so old school they really were bugle boys,haha.

Me and Tomoko went to Dark Sparkle had such a good time with her. She is so cool ,alas.…its not meant to be ,it is such a shame :( .Earlier we were drinking a bottle of Moscato she brought over, it was damn good. Strength through Strife!

oronzos Lyric of the moment: Mithras,god of the morning. Our Trumpets Weaken the Wall!!Rome is above the nations,but thou ist over all.... Our helmets scrorch our foreheads,our sandals burn our feet. Mithras below you we march!Invincible sun the flame of light you dwell within our hearts!(Rudyard Kipling/Blood Axis)!)

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ASTRONAUTS/SLEEP/ITALIAN DRAGOONS
jan 6 2003

Wanted to party this weekend,was all amped...(2parties and arrow bar/was gonna meet good friends) but come around 6pm on sat..i cook 2 lambchops with olio di oliva,fungi,carrots,patate,and vino)

anyways this was a bad idea to do before going out.I wound up passing out at 7:30!

I wound up having bad dreams to!I dreamt i was being sent as an astronaut,however with no training,in 2 hrs time!i was like...excuse me...i think i will die,i dont know what to do,but similar to s.f.s.U. a huge bueracracy prevented me accheiving jack squat!it was pretty scary.Woke up though the next day and played some tennis against the wall ( a worthier opponent than most!ha!) when you get old,gots ta keep fit ;) haha.

Later I passed by safeway and i see this dude w/shopping cart,i am assuming is a bum....he walks with it two blocks away from supermarket...and then he takes his 2 little bags of groceries out and puts them in his car....talk about the degeneration of flesh,he was a big man to,so lazy.

Went to arrow later,ran into a girl from my his 300 course,she had did her paper on some typical topic,but said i seemd like a genius in the class ,i did my paper on the racist social darwinist ridicule of the italian army in ww2 by british and german historians (who wanted to scapegoat their non nordic latin allies for defeats)writers,reapeated by un-interested amaerican writers and even repeated by italians who were afraid to be labeled facist by trying to uncover the valour of the 450,000+ italians who laid down their lives in a terrible war.

Oronzos Lyric of the moment: well i spit in me fist and i picked up me stick (Clancy Brothers)...well we fought for irelands glory,and many a man did fall,from musket,from bayonet,and from thundering cannonball(Clancy Brothers)!)

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HAIL THE NEW YEAR 2003!
new years 2003

Man it was a long night,I was out till 10 am the next day.Some dude started a fight with my friend,so i go over to tell this guy to step off...and my typical luck...hes the wrong guy,and he likes me aka.knows who i am,so in essence i threatened the wrong guy,felt really bad about it and apologized (as i am not a jerk) and gave him a swig from my russian flask of vod-tka.Partied pretty hard and 4 girls gave me nice kisses,including 1 beauty who i hope i see again,i said "are you the designer?" she said no,i then said "the way you dress i would assume your a designer"then she kissed me very nice.

later went to a high class 60 dollar drum and bass thing at 2 am till 8 am,(people were still paying full price at 2am...actually they marked it down to a reasonable 40!ha!,and here i was bitching about the club "fake costing 15 dollars that night/normally its between5-8 bucks) i got in for free and partied in the VIP lounge.To funny,so thats what its like to live the high life?

-------------------------------------------------------- day after new years 1/2/2003 me and 3 of my guy friends(lloyd,steve and ryan)went and saw "greek weding" movie at the parkway theater in oakland.It was funny because this is such a female movie,and it was the only one playing at this budget theater so we were stuck (its a cool speakeasy theater with couches ,beer/stout,and pizza!)...it looked like a double date haha.We then hit Radio a bar in oakland and ran into some old friends (Monica,Heiko and Betsy..old school ebay expunks),that was pretty cool. !)

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8th century B.C.GREEK CLASSICAL LIT AND TEENIE BOPPERS WHO ATTEND INSTITUTIONS OF HIGHER LEARNING
december 29 2002

bought 2 cds by "the ukrainians" and a vinyl record by slavic black metal band Saltus "slavonic pride" .I also bought a couple of books today Procopius:secret history ,Hesiod :theoganis,icelandic sagas,and a book by Emilia Zola "la debacle"

my used copy of Hesiods "Theoganis" is whats funny it was apparently owned by some college girl before me,because she wrote little notes in it...they are so funny!

the funniest part is when Hesiod says some sexist remark about the sexes and she writes in her notes in the book

"Excuse me!" and "Get a clue Hesiod!!!" like oh my God!

Hesiod also states

"Do not lie beside the fire when you have just made love and show your naked parts.Also it is unwise to sow your seed when you have just come from a funeral;Far more auspiciously,beget your child after a feast of the immortal Gods"

the girl than writes

"BORING"

in big bubbly letters

...oh my! i dont know it just made my day,it was to funny! !

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FROM THE MOMA TO HOLIDAYS TO SERBIAN GIRLS
nov /dec2002

i am trying to get a job at the MOMA museum.....i so hope i get it!!!!!!

while i was at the Moma i saw an exhibit by Gerhard Richter.He paints on top of photos.It creates a ghost like effect.I loved this room he did of 3 murdered people.It looked like the manifestation of memories.It really did.they were gray and blurry,really looking like memories.

I had a 200 dollar dinner on christmas eve (courtesy of my ukrainian friend Sarah's mom)...which included TRUFFLES...yes i got to try the equivelent of eating slices of gold (is not truffles somewhere between 500 dollars up a pound?)

bought 2 books by Gogol and ezra pound.Finished reading the Aeniad by Virgil and a history on Jan Zizzka slavic warlord. i did well in school this semester,and i have my laptop to praise,as it allowed me to procrastinate as i usually do,but suceed at finishing my work!!!I wrote a 15 page paper in 1 day...ugh gave me 2 pimples.

-saw a terrible cabaret with the lovely tomoko at the hemlock tavern,it was genuine cabaret music from the weimar era,however it was whack ass SF stupidity,with whacky outfits and new conteporary and tactless stupid sexual lyrics (reminded me of the saturday night live sketch:dog show)

-been listening to Latvian Pagan black metal band : Skyforger....so good ...so good!!!!!!! My dad came out to visit me around thanksgiving and we had nice time wine tastiting (and watched quest for fire!haha..its a good movie!) i took a wild bay leaf plant,they are all over the bay area.I planted it and will put in my tomatoe sauce ;)

-met a girl in at the arrow bar,she had an accent...so i asked her where she was from.She was fro belgrade serbia studying as an art student here in the US,so typical oronzo style... i ask her "what were you doing when nato was bombing belgrade"...and her reply? "we were partying!like crazy"...that made me think...yeah,no electricity...nothing to do but go to cafes and party before the days end.!)

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A WEEK OF THE STARS OF MISANTHROPY
nov 2002

i just got back from interviewing boyd rice and douglas peirce, i went to the hotel, and then we went to a cocktail bar,boyd was doing snuff the whole time,19th century style! quite decadent,i had the interview video taped as well as audio.

Went to a book signing later that week and met Jim Goad (Nihilistic journalist...wrote "answer Me") and a few days after that Bruce Campell (from evil dead)....what a weird misanthropic week : )!)

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DEATH IN JUNE AND POSEIDON FREQUENT THIS MONTH
oct 2002

I Saw Boyd Rice and Death in June play in SF.Brilliant preformance.I tlaked to them later (they think someone might have slipped something in their drink!).when i said good bye to boyd,i said...Salute (italian) and he said "A noi!" (italian 1930s greeting,translation:to us!)

Saw a free Devo concert in front of sf city hall.they wwere fat and grey, unenthused at 1st but later got more into the spirit of things.They were doing a commercial for the new nissan car (Wanna Be- Audi TT,theirs a whole bunch of these type of cars now)

I ordered the dvd of russian film "come and See" an insane movie similar to the painted bird book. I am reading the Aeniad right now.Brilliant.

I actually had a dream Poesidon was trying to kill me. In my dream i met a girl on a cruise boat.We hook up.In the back of my mind i know she is a daughter of Poesidon.I mention this in passing the next day to a friend on the boat.She looks at me with flashing eyes and a black look!and says you should not have uttered the name of Poesidon,you made him notice you and he does your blasphemy....so to make a long story short,the whole dream is me trying to escape to ny with poesidon trying to kill me with the ocean.Somehow i survive and when i arrive in Ny,he apologizes to me saying,my daughter is just that way,and now shes w/some other fellow who i must kill.Take care....Freaking Scary dream!ugh!!)

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DER BLUTARSCH
sep 2002

School has started. I am now a History Major/Classics Minor. I am reading the illiad and Prometheus Bound,i am quite happy !!!!My friend mike made some REAL home brewed Mead (as in Beowulf mead!!!!!!!)...i tell you their is nothing like an ancient grog like that to give you the feeling of glory (not to mention 13 % haha) also saw a milano hardcore exhibit on the mission SF, 3 dollar margarittas! (i enjoy wine,mead,cider and bloody marys and white russians myself) i then went to a creepy poly.... party by accident and quickly left. I smelled Petruli for the first time. at the party..UGH!!!! it smelled like a dead hamster cage!!!!!the horror the horror!!!!!!

I I saw Der Blutarsch play at a warehouse in oakland! Brilliant! Torches the whole 9 yards.

I also found out that my father the tailor once made a dress for a princess of the now defunct Hapspurg family in New York in the 1970s ( i have also seen a photo of him putting a dress on liz taylor) My dad used to work for Halston,liz claiborne,,Michi Moon,ralph lauren,Rondola etc...and has been working since he was 8 yrs old as a apprentice (he was also a bike racer and among other things!)

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SADNESS
Aug 31 Visited a close realative who is dying form lung cancer that spread to the brain.Received a terminal illness out of the blue (he only smoked for a few years),What more can i say.I am vey sad.....!)

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DAVID BROKIE.GENIUS.
Saw the Dave Brokie Expeirience in in SF,Such a brilliant preformance,quite hysterical preformance.He came out as osama but looked more like a pirate.He made the All american band from cardboard cutouts of the rock,homer simpson and christine aguire and djed techno disco,while saying im the rock and dough!it was quite funny.He is a good person very creative,im glad his band gwar allows him to be a creative person financially because he deserves it :) !It reminded me a bit of when i saw The Upright Citizens Brigade play i also the largest dragonfly earlier that day while playing tennis in the rose gardens

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ALL HAIL MY TRIP TO ITALIA AND HUNGARY!!!
augosto 2002 MY European trip (Long)

Hi,so I just returned from on a 35 day vacation to Italy (ITALIA) and Hungary (MAGYAROSZAG)

here are some exerpts i wrote down : !

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19 Jul

Well,i am in Lecce right now and things are hot...i packed clothes for the icy north.....damn SF and its frigid temp,it has got me so used to it and its cold climate.I flew on delta sadly,they combined with alitalia (not air italia,haha) and i was in the air per 26 ore ,hours!!!! Ugh!

Lecce is my destination,in the puglia territory on the southeast of the penninsula.(heel of the boot facing greece and albania)I await entry to my fathers house,a beauty of a house on a volcanic rock beach situated across from 4 mideival towers.Puglia was the last territory in mainland italy to be held by the byzantines and suffered Norman invasion and then Turkish.The city of Otranto is my favorite.It has a massive castle,and a church filled with the bones of the 800 martyrs killed by the Turks (right behind the preist giving mass) and a giant byzantine style mosaic on the entire church floor dubbed the tree of Life,this mosaic features all sorts of images and monsters.

As i sit on the volcanic beach shore of leecce,i see the invasion ships of Turks or Normans approaching as i sit on the blood stained soil of history....these are the same shores where Hannibal was finally routed.

i had a insane dream that 12 foot giant storks were in my dads house in italy gulping and swallowing bloodily young deer! my dad cam home and speared one but it just kept on walking around the house....non chalantly and would not leave. !

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25 Jul

i just rode a scooter through the streets of italy with my unle vincenzo in the rain to get to a email spot.ugh talk about harrowing expeiriences....

im-a goinna die! (source:uncle vincenzo€)

ok, so i bought a eurorail pass in the usa over the phone because as its imposible to get anything done out here (im going to go to rome berlin and budapest and then back to lecce,maybe sloveinia and vienna,maybe not) italians all they want to do is eat and sleep and get the pension,they are quick to shoo you away,and they pretend they dont know nothing.it is imposible to get anything accheived,i was a t a italian travel agency and they dont know what a eurorail is,,,,che cotso!!!!!!Not only that they didnt say well here is an altrenative...its called an interrail pass etc...they just were like

,i dont know now let me get back to hurrying up to doing nothing!i need to think about sitting on the beach!

and if they open up the computer out here (and im talking about a buisness not a person) they act likew they are opening up a damn treasure chest (cause the internet costs money )! I saw Jovanoti play in Italy,how funny is that!!!!!Also saw a small outdoor barratone opera singer in the village of lequile.he sang initally some fancy experimental stuff that the old people in the vllage couldnt get into,but then ended with favorites like oh solo mio which was a suggestion of my dad. oh and another earthquake just hit turkey,i swear everytime im out here in italy a earthquake hits turkey....... !)

--------------------------------------------------------- 29 Jul i am writing from the vittorio emmanuel monument in Roma. I am going to Budapest tomorow night (Vienna then to buda)i might just skip berlin to stretch my money out (its cheaper in hungaria) i dont know yet.ill actually be arriving in hungary on aug 2 !)

---------------------------------------------------------4 Aug 2002 i am sleeping in a midevil fortess 9 bucks a night,in buda pest on a 200 meter hill (the fortress has ww2 artillery and AA peices on top of it as well !!!) it is to good to be true :) (The ravens in Hungary and Austria are truly Epic,large with prehistoric faces and gray breasts...not to mention large.I see the dead of many a battle in these ravens faces) The hill is called Geller Hill and is right over the danube river,witches used to come and celebrate their practices on this hill.This fort was built by the Austrians to make sure that they had the upper hand if Budapest tried to exert to much independance.The Austrians could shell the city from this positon,the romans also used this hill et...Climbing up that hill at night was scary as their were no lights and it was all woods,not to mention about 15 minutes straight up.It made your heart race,very primal to be scared for your life.(and this is after a long night partying!ugh)

Their is a turkish bath at the end of the hill and a church built into the cave (a spooky neat cave church!)....their is also like 100 cats living in weird cat communitys at the a base of the hill.

The only bad part is going back to sleep on this hill at night in the woods very dark and scary...about 12 minutes straight up with no lights and potential bad encounters just waiting to happen (200 meters up!!!!) uphill in the woods pitch black. theirs a huge music festivel up here right now,pulp iggy pop ,cure all played and at this festival tomorow i am seeing nightwish (finn black metal band ) and jovanoti on the same ticket .....crazy huh! gimmie 5 allright (old javanoti rap song)

im planning on going to a armenian museum and maybe to a turkish medicinal bath house today...its very hot out here i ate blood sausage yesterday with radishes :).I also ate Wild Boar!!!!!!! and about 150 snails all together haha!!!and i saw psycho storks in the feilds on the train in hungary,the hungarian train conductor knew i was italian by my facial features.I found that quite flattering. The landmark of Hungary is the Parliament building.This was built in the austro-hungarian era to equate = status with that of Vienna,this building is gigantic...blocks long,anyway i heard a story about how Michael Jackson wanted to but it!What a fucker...the nerve!as if a nations cultural landmark is to be equated with money (which is disposable and worthless in the test of time) !)

--------------------------------------------------------- 6 Aug 2002 Yesterday a person jumped in fron of the subway train i was on in budapest!Was it a suicide or a Ukranian mobster hit? Later i got on a bus and it was the late one and the last one,i almost got stuck in rural hungary with no way back to buda ,i saw goats... i knew i was in trouble. (and you cant take a cab because they are hustlers here) Its funny their are american style malls in budapest.It look like a american b52 bomber randomly parchuted malls on sporadic locations in historic Budapest!!! I took a turkish bath....oh god what bliss! Its funny people where only the loincloth towel in here haha. I went to the hungarian military mueseum spent all day their!!!!the old currator man was so happy with me,we talked and he mentiomned about hungarian volunteers in the italian risorgemeto and he spoke of what a shame it was that hungarians had to face italians in ww1 when the 2 nations have always had good relations and no quarrels, and a common antagonizer austria.it was very sweet. later as i was crossing a bridge over the river Danube, a praying mantis (large grashopper like insect that eats other insects,sort of rare) was stuck from the winds the cars and the crushing river,and was bound to die.I took it to safety back to Geller Hill. !)

--------------------------------------------------------- 9 Aug 2002 just arrived in rome after a gruelling ordeal in austria (red bull helped me out a great deal) and a 15 hour train ride,plus my bag is so heavy,i think im going to return as a ball of muscleand sinew (especially from climbing to the fortress every day and night in hungary its 250 meters above sea level)i went to a magyar cemetary in buda.....crazy....mad pagan-esque!!!! ...haha-oh when i was in vienna (wien) i saw that beautiful garden with all the sphinxes,i had a photo of 1 of those sphinxes for a long time in my bathroom,not knowing where they were from) crazy ravens frequent the garden..quite epic !)

---------------------------------------------------------i am writing from the risorgemento building in roma (Vittorio emannuel).i love this building,mammoth 1930s style strength! haha the danube river is flooding right now!!funny that i left hungaria right in time.Ive been working out a lot in Lecce as well as getting a bronze tan,(as befitting my olive complexion) and eating very healthy food.Its funny fresh mozarella from a dairy farmer cost less than a cola...damn american hegenomy in the world (their is a mcdonalds in the piazza saint oronzo haha).

my grandmother is 90 and she looks as healthy as a 50 year old.old people in europe are treated well and eat well,unlike america where people are left to die with their thoughts in a home because tjheir children dont have time because they need to make more money!also no vacations in america unlike europe 1month mandatory,thats why im going to become a history teacher.i wont be rich but ill have peice of mind that ill have a summer every year. !)

--------------------------------------------------------- End of August Returned to SF from Europe,6 terrible bad things have happened to me since my return...almost in retaliation to the good time i had in hungaria e italia (i lost my job,my girlfriend broke up with me,my uncle got a terminal illness,my other uncle is dying,my school situation shows i aint graduating as soon as i thought,and i ran into my ex charlene after not seeing her for 2 years and she was very mean to me

...that was sort of the straw that broke oronzos back...anyways... .........alas in folklore bad always happens in increments of 3,hopefully this will be the last 6th situation. i hope.!)

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MURDER ACROSS THE STRET,ALAS
June 2002-Janus 2002i was in a resturant today reading a book on byzantine history on my lunch break,this cute old man with his family kept looking at me.then he came over to me and his family were all embareesed,he twas trying to compliment me about looking like a proper young man but couldnt find the words to express himself it was very cute,then his family shooed him away from me

a man was murdered across the street from my house today at 4 pm,i heard him scream "no... no!... why? i dont know you.!!!!!!!.." he was putting money in the parking meter and a psycho from pittsburgh pa randomly came and stabbed him in the ribs....life

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SCYTHIAN STAG OF EURASIA
aprile 2002

i got a wonderful wall releif of a byzantine retreat ( 4 feet long) and a poster of a museum exhibit called "Scythian Stag of Eurasia !!! (i also have a 3 foot bust of achilles) how awesome is that!?.Also i went to a fort for my birthday,and a art preformance by orpheum.It was called Kubla Khan (the opium poem of Samuelle Cooldridge) in this they put headphones on you and a mask,the mask had mirrors so that yuo only saw the ceiling (which had the art on it)...you then walked along in the dark and listened to the poem.It was very nice.!)

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MEETIN NIKKI
jan 2002

met a lovely girl nikki kamminga at the record store,we hit it off.Nice.Me and nikki went to see Gates of Hell by Rodin outdoor sculpture at stanford campus at 1 am on our 1st date,then we saw a giant steel virgin mary .very bizzare,the lights went off and it looked like it moved its face!madonna mia! :) !)

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SERBIAN ORTHODOX BRACERS
oktober 27 2001

i had these serbian orthodox bracers for a long time...i have a friend whos studying as a priest and said they were probably stolen from a serbian church and i should give them to him to be burned or returned to a eastern orthodox church.Today i gave them to him (Even though i by nature am not a religous person...but i did this out of respect)...whilst i study for 2 tests,my Midevial Flirenze and Midevial Islam classes....agagh!to much stress.

Later i had a date with Shayna,we went to Tilden Park which is sort of a national park in berkeley (by the way their are some weird stones their that witchs do rituals on,i beleive they are ancient Indian stones) and me and shayna saw a huge banna slug it was almost 1 foot long ,but the weird thing was i heard birds making strange noises,now most people would ignore this,not me however,i look up and lo and behold a huge hawk is devouring a nest and the little bird parents are futiling trying to chase awy the mammoth bird of prey.Talk about insanity!!)

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BOSNIAN FORCES IN IKEA
Augosto 2001

i was in ikea... ok...first off to go into ikea is a bit embaresing for me but this story is worth telling. as i went to purchase a desk at ikea i was with my friend anshuman i had just shave my head and had cut it so i had this gorbachov look going on.while i was in their i had a croation soccer jersey on and as i ran into anshumans ex girlfriend Sarah who happened to be their at the same time which was weird in itself i told her to turn around to show her my gorbachav cut.As she does this a huge man behinfd me at least 6 feet says something to me in another languiage.Im assuming he is croat...

so i point to my soccer jersey and smile and say Hrvaka (croatia).He doesnt smile back...i look more closely and notice hes missing all his teeth exept one i ask his name.its muhammed...i think in my head...uh oh,maybe this guy is a muslim soldier from the 1990 war and who knows of the horrors hes been through or inflicted maybe from croats or serbs,he probably thinks im croat and since i have boots on and a shaved head and a croat national shirt on maybe he thinks im some kind of right wing croat punk or something...uh oh i think and so im like oh im an ITALIAN ...you like soccer etc...to difuse the situation(im not croat...dont kill me please ,yikes )...anyway it turned out ok...it was also funny it hapened in yuppie shithole ikea...and the fact that it was a pseudo international situation mixed with the fact that ikeas swedish (AKA neutral nation for diplomacy ) was kind of funny.!)

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HOBOS VS BUMS
november 2000

I gave 2 bucks to a hobo (i almost never give money).Their is a big difference between a bum and a hobo! Hobos are admirable (sort of )in a way. They are more like vagabond travellers than parasites. He mentiioned my cavalry boots were like his WW1 artillery officer grandfather,i was impressed! Also I Got hired at a fancy seafood grotto resturant as a waiter,have i acchieved my lot in life as a italian?(just kidding).Decided i will start brewing my own Cider! I am now a pirate!!!!(captain harlock!) I finally passed statistics......My God its about time!!)

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UP TILL 6AM-SPRAYED BY A HOSE
oktober 21 2000

saw a shooting star for the 1st time in my life,got a copy of a captain harlock video and the annotated HP lovecraft (with the mountains of madness!Penquins!).Went to metal club "Sixteen" tonight,later waited for Bart train to open at 3 (opens at 4) had to walk through Cracked out dregs of humanitity on market at 3am...Interesting and exiting to say the least (Mountains of madness?!) While waiting outside the station for doors to open,a maintenance guy is cleaning the area with a hose.I think to myself he is going to hit me with water....Nah!...Yep got spalshed with water while reading my New lovecraft book....Aye Yai!!)

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WRESTLING SWEDES
Oktober 19 saw amber asylum at this punk/Anime store on valencia between 19th and 20th st in San Francisco,One of the better shows ive seen in a while,it was free their was a keg of pale ale and the music sounded very midevil/pagen-esque.They had a eletric oboe? and violin ,bass ,and drums very percussion oriented,all females in the band as well,havent been to a small punk show like that in a while.Went to a party as well that had a wrestling area in the middle of the floor,it was in oakland ghetto area and it was fun,and silly.I wrestled my friend Karlerik the swede,he outweighed me but i did not lose very quickly,i got tired (as did Karl-erik) after 6 minutes as we were both quite drunk and i eventually let myself get pinned just so i could finish my drink.Ha Ha!The Swede vs the italian! met Ver at a grocery store, how mack daddy is that...oh my ,late we had a date and were watching a movie at my house,when i turned the light back on their was a mouse on my floor (killed by my cat),it was weird because it had no bruises or cuts,it almost looked like a toy.Bizzare. i wish Charlie was till in my life!)

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THE PAINTED BIRD CURSES MY ROOM FURTHER
september 15-18 2000 Read the Dwarf by Par Lagerkvisr,Some more HP lovecraft (lurker at the Threshold) and now the "Painted Bird"!This book is pure insanity and depravity and i think both the movies "Come and See"(russian) and "Reflecting Skin" (both are depraved and intense...Humanity!) were influenced by it.I read entirely in 1 1/2 days and mostly in the bath tub...let me tell you i felt a bit wierd after getting out of the bath after reading this intense book.

The wierd thing is ive had to put 2 things out of their misery since reading it.... (besides my computer being haunted ,see below entry) i came home on my bike from grocery shopping and saw a pretty butterfly with a broken wing fluttering in the middle of the street i rode by it....and then had to back track and kill it,i could not stand to see its misery...and today i was throwing out the garbage and their was a rat in a poison trap whimpering in the dump...at first i released it and then after seeing it could not move,i went home and got a hammer and battered it in the dump...it was difficult as the garbage did not give me a clean stroke. I felt sad but i was only being merciful to it,i then threw the hammer in the dump (the maintence man thought i was crazy for throwing a perfectly good hammer away!)...i swear if something like this happens tomorow i will be very weirded out! ...also no more charlene (charlie) in my life :( i miss her so much)!)

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NYC
Aug 2000 entry UNDER CONSTRUCTION On my way to the Oakland airport (easier to get to then the SF airport,making me happy...or so i believed) i had one...one hellish expierience.I leave my house 2 hours prior to the flight...Very responsible,no?So I am taking the train bus doesnt come...alas no other bus is coming i get a cab with 5 minutes to spare in a industrial wasteland went on a trip to New York (this is where i am from) and ill abbreviate some events for myself until i get a chance to wright them down.. 1-ate belgian fries...quite quaint actually,little cute tray of wood to eat them in 2-Ran into my friend Wai in the city and i was not even going to go into the city that day..he had a German dj friend...Zion a rap band from oakland was playing..haha. 3-visited Fort Wadsworth this 4-Saw a dying pigeon,wai ignored it while i sympathized,later wai nearly dies ,being mowed down by a rice rocket car.I had the blood from his head on my hands 5-At the NY Library Drop Slots are non existant in NY,i found this hard to believe but they had been the cas for years..Its because NY residents/KIDS throw thrash down them...Vey Strange. 6-Pete,Jim,Bran 7-fishing with my dad...happy times!)

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SPIRITS INFEST MY VIDEO GAMES IT SEEMS
september 15-18 2000 came home late,played panzer general II on my computer....right when the german infantry unit died a wierd moan came through my speakers............i hope it was just a truck passing by as i dont need no insane sspirits in my room!!)

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KING DIAMOND AND THE SAFEWAY IN THE CASTRO
July 24th 2000 Saw King Diamond tonight,quite a surreal night.First i go to the supermarket safeway in the Castro district SF (Very Gay district) I get 6 chicken legs for 87 cents,...thats 3 dead birds legs..they are only worth 87 cents!?i find that wierd and sad.Then i am on line to buy them,a crackhead looking crazy guy is in front of me buying groceries....but no he is no typical crackhead...he is a gay crackhead who is staring me up and down...its pretty funny..HA! So from this point we go to the club,i am drinking honeyliquer which makes you feel as if your in the middle ages...Very nice..Swillin!!So we get to the horrible cock rock/Hippie owned and runned club "Maritime Hall"

I hate this place but alas i wanted to see king diamond!!!!So we get their and the bouncer is searching me and i said "i have a camera is that ok?" He says NO !i want to kill him....their are tons of people with cameras inside,i was just being freindly by asking....so i have to go back to the car with the driver which is 15 minutes away,by the time we get back,we attempt to go in...and psycho cock rocker "dude" screams we cant go in!This after we haD GOT THEIR EARLY and I AM ABOUT TO DROP 20 DOLLARS on a single band (inncidently a year earlier i bought a ticket to see Mercyful fate/king diamond...they then canceled the show and dicked me around until i neve saw my 20 dollars! so they were about to fuck me twice!)this "dude" was to surreal..first he screams as if we are kids and stupid,and second he shuts the door in our face,we are here to see king diamond not the rolling stones!So we sit their in disbelief and then this pscho gross pedephile type guy who hangs out in the goth clubs that i know from berkeley approaches us , he was trying to get into the goth club downstairs but it was cancelled,so here we are not getting in the show and then this dude wants to hang out!We are pissed,then big Fat homeboy bouncer says you wanna get in...yes we say,ok 20 dollars...so we pay him,we basically bribed him to get in as he pocketed the money,but he bribed us the cost of admission strange. And now the show...Awsome,kind diamond touched my hand and he played "no presents for christmas" as a encore because he heard me and a frien eric shout it out...he came out in a santa suit!Funny!

Random June entry Dropped Statistics for 4th time..Eat Dim Sum all the time...Ugh! !)

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KOREAN (CHOSON) BLOOD SAUSAGE
june 19 2000 ate korean blood sausage today for breakfast,courtesy of my love charlene, and later dinner ...is it normal to eat colagulated blood in the morning..even if it does have rice in it?,i am preparing for a statistics exam...The Doom that Cometh.Got a B in my Saber fencing class...!)

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THE DIARY STARTS HERE
Starting my journal in the year of the future 2000!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

June 16 2000: Went to Ruby Room bar in oakland, Lame A.C,D.C. rock shit (to those who think the white trash thing (and country music?!?)is in,my Ass is in AND retro AS hell so you should be into my ass.....you sheep!! As Evan Dorkin wrote in Gen Ecch! When ACDC is blasted on a classic rock station its horrible cockrock,but when played on a alternative college rock station its cool...very cool.).Hung out with Wai. Went to A Goth club (House of Voodoo?)music was pretty good (classic deathrock ),but full of Ren fair type fat nerd Goths..80 percent UGH,i used to think people at Goth clubs were sexy...nope! not any more (another scene watered down once again),Then went to a outdoor "full moon Rave"...i was stuck their till 7 AM...HELP!!!!!!! Good points were it was very grassroots, on the beach at 3 com park Sf ,and in addition it was a full moon very beutiful,not to many people and i drank a cider and then a Stout which = SNAKEBITE...that violent UK soccer hooligan drink...I am obviously (?) not a aggro person, yet still i could see how snakebite effects people in a thug like way..i mean i just felt like beating/pummeling with my face..HA!!!)

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Police Raid on italian ww2 beretta sub machine gun (by danh)
I was leaving my friend Oronzo il Furiosos apartment at about 4am today, and as I was biking off, I noticed a large dark clothed man about 15 feet in front of me with a very large gun pointed at me. As my eyes adjusted to the darkness I noticed 6 police cars (About 18 cops in total!!!What the Hell?!!)with their lights off parked further up the block. I noticed a cop in front of me, one to the side, and I could see at least one crouched behind a car. One cop tensely, but in a soft voice, ordered me to put the bike down, raise my hands above my head, then turn around, then back up towards him, then kneel, then put my hands behind my back, then lay down fully on the ground, then not move. He took my backpack, patted me down, cuffed me, asked me if I had a gun in my backpack, had a fellow officer search it, and then went off for a while. When he came back he asked me how many people were in the apartment, what they were doing, and if they had any weapons. I couldn't think of anything illegal I have done lately, the apartment occupant had recently been brewing his own ale but I don't think that's illegal. There were two people in the apartment, the occupant of the apartment is a Italian WW2 historical buff and has a non working Italian ww2 submachine gun mounted on the wall, but I didn't think of that. I was going to say he had a nonfunctioning Italian ww2 rifle with a bayonet sticking out of one end, but I thought better of it and said no, nothing at all. I thought they were here because of his other friend in the apartment, a heavily tattooed guy we affectionately call "corpse cleaner" because he used to work for Crime Scene Cleaners in San Francisco. He's kind of crazy and recently saw his best friend get murdered on the street near 6th and Mission, so I thought maybe he had been carrying a gun around, and someone had saw him, and the cops must have had the apartment staked out all night, a nice cop came around and said I could kneel against a building wall instead of lying on the ground in the middle of the street, out of the way of potential gunfire. I gave them the phone number of the occupant, they called him and told him to come outside with his hands where they could see, then the cops did the same procedure on him. They asked him about any machine guns he might have in the apartment... he explained he had an nonworking italian ww2 Beretta submachine gun mounted on his wall. I've known oronzo for a really long time so I no longer thought that was very weird. They finally got corpse cleaner out of the apartment and I thought he was going to put up a fight and then we'd all get shot, but he said nothing and didn't put up a fight. I wonder what they thought while searching the apartment while we were up against the wall outside, there's a ram's head with red eyes mounted on the wall, a collection of styrofoam heads with ww2 helmets on them, lots of wargame minatures, a large Italian flag mounted one the ceiling above the bead. The cops said they had gotten a call about our loud party (it wasn't us, it was the apartment upstairs, we just happened to be up) and then someone had noticed what they called a "carbine" from a window. I don't know how long they had the apartment staked out, I think they got the call about 1:30am. They uncuffed us and took our names, I was thinking that since it was all a big misunderstanding they really didn't need my information, did they? Insteadof standing up for my civil liberties, I gave them my real name and phone number and address, they apologized and I mumbled "goodbye!" and rushed home.

old school story by danh
1998 story

I was going to sit at home last night and mend socks, I had gone out every single night for the last 2 months and I was a bit tired. My friend called me and said she wanted to go to an "Apocalyptic" party, dress like it's the end of the world, I don't have much to wear like that and I was wearing my trenchcoat and hello kitty death shirt so I said I would wear that. I picked her up and she was dressed like the main character from Tomb Raider except without the pneumatic breasts, then we went to pick up her boyfriend EL FURIOSO. el furioso is the most vain person I know, he took a long time to get dressed, he was wearing this spiked bolt thrower thing, as if he were going to a gwar concert, with lines on his face and what he said were Serbian cavalry wristguards, I didn't know the Serbs had cavalry, he looked pretty unique,

I parked far away and had fun making him walk like that down Telegraph except I had to hide his police baton in my trenchcoat so he wouldn't get arrested. In SF we picked up a guy wearing aluminum siding, cowboy hat and fire extinguisher, he had a rad cardboard cutout of The Undertaker in his kitchen. Then we picked up anjie's friend the tranvestite, his name was either Charlie or Charlene, depending on his mood.

He had taped the comedy central tick marathon so I had a lot of fun watching that while he got dressed in some weird purple leopardskin thing (it was the mad scientist convention episode, with the evil guy ranting how he must do bad things to good people.)

We brought his almost normal looking friend too, so in my little Toyota we fit fire extinguisher boy, spike boy, normal looking guy, the tranvestite, me, and "i'm not goth!" anjie in the trunk.

The party was somewhere on Capp street in the mission but we weren't quite sure where, but then we saw a house with flaming things shooting out the door and decided that was it. The people at the door insisted on drawing either a pentagram or upside down cross on our heads, except for me, she drew a hello kitty on me in honor of my shirt. Inside it was dark and scary and there were people all over the place and weird things painted on the walls and junkies making out on the roof and a loud death metal band in KISS makeup in the living room and smoke machines and fire and more smoke (smoke detector kept going off, no one seemed to care), it was pretty scary and overwhelming and I decided it would be more fun to sit on the porch and watch people try to go in, decide it was just too scary to go in and turn back and walk back onto the street.

tranvestite used to be a nude model in Slovenia, AND has been to Albania, which are numbers 1 and 2 on oronzo's top 10 list of life. my little group except for EL FURIOSO and the tranvestite, we figured they needed some time alone to get to know each other better, decided to walk to the all night burrito place at 24th and Mission. We decided anjie's fake pistol (can't be lara croft without guns) would be happier in my backpack instead of strapped to her leg with duct tape, though she probably shouldn't have asked HEY DANH DO YOU HAVE MY GUN so loud in the mission at 3am.

We dined on fine burritos, then anjie asked fire extinguisher boy what she thought of her boyfriend, so he sprayed her with the extinguisher, and by default me, and the normal looking guy, and the people in the booth behind us, and to the side. Anjie wanted to stay and finish her burrito but the guy behind us got out of this booth and gave us this look that seemed to say "You just sprayed chemical shit all over my pregnant wife, now I harm you." and the people to the side in the bandanas didn't look very happy either and I had this really bad taste in my mouth from the chemical spray so we ran out very quickly, someone yelled "fuck you you funny looking motherfuckers" and we kept running back to the house and kept looking over our shoulders since I figured they would let us run a bit and tire ourselves out and let us think we were safe and then hunt us down and kill us but it didn't happen, except for when we were crossing a street and a speeding car seemed to actually speed up and aim for us, but it was dark and maybe he was hypnotized by my white t shirt.

As we got back to the party spike boy came running out, begging us to take him home, saying it was the most bizarre horrible party he'd ever been too, so we got the tranvestite, spike boy didn't believe that we had all almost died invoking his name in vain. We all fit back in the car, I dropped almost everyone off, watched the "H.E.R.O.E.S." episode of the tick, drove myself, anjie and spike boy home with a brief stop to let oronzo change out of the gwar armor and feed his cat.

Now I realize I left my backpack at the tranvestite's house while watching the tick and it has my stuff that I prove to the bank I am who I say I am so now I can't get any money and I'm out of gas and there's white fire extinguisher powder crap all over my seats and I need to go find anjie soon and figure out how to get back to sf and retrieve my identity. !)

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old school story by danh
1998

my friend the oronzo warlord's girlfriend had to leave town for a month for job training, except her cat is totally insane, it absolutely refuses to defecate or urinate unless shannon is around. it would rather die than pee without shannon being nearby. shannon has been gone for 4 days, the cat started swelling up, we had to take it to the vet, the vet gave it a cat enema, cost $300, if shannon is gone much longer its going to be very expensive. !)

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old school story
1998 story by DanH

Odd weekend. Friday I got up, my power had been shut off, bitched about it, couldn't really blame my roommate since she's in LA, well I could since I gave her the money earlier and she just didn't pay the bill and it cost me $30 extra to get the power hooked up, and they didn't even hook up until the next day so I slept on goth girl's floor since I like sleeping near stuff like alarm clocks and radios. I looked at a house deep in the hood on Saturday. The landlord let us in, does gout make your ankles swell up? He had these absolutely huge ankles that he seemed to have had trouble finding socks that would fit. He was telling us how the previous tenants had 17 young men over and 8 dogs and made a mural above the stairs (I guess they were "punk rock" and "squatted") and I think he should have just lied and not told us about them at all but maybe he believes in being honest.

I spent the afternoon building shelves and suffered from some sort of allergy or cold all day. Goth girl gave me some pills that she swore was "benadryl", I think I believe her but after I took them I napped very soundly for 4 hours, at the time I couldn't figure out why I was so tired but felt the incredible need to sleep anyway. I went to a party later with El Furioso and goth girl later, El Furioso saw his ex-girlfriend there (and her twin was there, they are both Evil, I can't tell them apart except for the neck tattoo) so he turned around and took off down the street, never to be seen again (until the next day).

I thought that was sort of odd behavior. There were a bunch of people at the party from Vacaville so I had some fun catching up on what is going on there, my ex girlfriend just got out of prison, I didn't know she had been in prison, now I'm glad I didn't call her back the other day. The next day I wandered around SF with my friend who recently moved her from Indiana. I was planning on not hanging around in SF with 300,000 lesbians but it just worked out that way. I specifically wandered around looking for 5 people I thought would be in the LYRIC contingent, and there they were, holding up their banner. It just amazes me I could find someone I knew in that huge crowd. I wish I had brought my camera, the Xena people were very amusing. The Tower people were not amusing, they were throwing out tapes, but they were trying to reach people deep in the crowd with their tapes, so they threw them pretty hard.

I ran into some people I met in Portland and we had a lot of fun sitting in front of the Virgin Megastore making fun of anyone committing fashion atrocities like wearing a white ribbed t shirt like everyone else or being bald and covered in tribal tattoos or committing the ultimate sin of that silly short in front long in back haircut. We bought a bunch of pretzels from the pretzel guy and we were about to go back to get some mustard from him, but then someone called in a bomb threat and the police wouldn't let us walk back to pretzel land and all traffic got rerouted to past Planet Hollywood.

Weirdest thing at whole parade was this guy who usually hangs around Sproul Plaza in Berkeley, wears a wide brimmed hat, stands precariously on a bucket perched on a chair, usually has something about how Red China is the place to be written on a sign, he is the strongest man in the world, I would get tired holding up that sign after an hour or so but he holds up that thing all day, he used to shout "tonyaaah haaadeeeeng, no good foh america" and then on weekends shout "michael ray, michael ray, shame on you michael ray" (I think he got caned in Singapore?)

This time his sign said: Dalai Lama Owned Slaves! He used human heads 'n blood on his birthday to worship his gods - The Devil! True colors of the Dalai Lama Revealed - A liar, crook, and sometimes Hyprocrite. . He practiced Human Slavery & owned slaves who were treated Tyrannously and Barbariously! He usd human heads and blood on his birthday to worship his gods - The Devil! Hans only make up 4% of the population of the Tibet Autonomous Region! Law-abiding people are fully enjoying religious freedom and other human rights! Tibetan culture is well preserved, even envrionmental protection is taken care of!

On the contrary, the Dalai clique recently employed, in SF, sinful rock music and musicians to raise money for their illegal activities. (Oh, holy monks and nobles are mixed with sinful things - How great thou Art!) (Tibet is already free - free from the yoke of the Dalai clique who use their own people as slaves.) At that point I tired of writing and walked back to the Mission. Later I went and saw Face/Off again, I finally noticed Joe Bob Briggs plays a medical technician in the oil rig prison scene. Today I lent my car to my old roommate so he could move, he cleaned a small section of the windshield to show me how dirty the car is in an attempt to be funny. Earlier we went to this cheap Vietnamese restaurant that occasionally names customer's favorite dishes after the patron's, so after reading the display in the store you can order "Fran's Favorite" or "Bill's Special", and soon there will be an "Oronzo Special".

I got a call from the landlord of the place in the hood I looked at Saturday, I was so incredibly rude to him on Saturday but he still wants to rent to me, even after he put me on hold and I yelled at my roommate "this ASSHOLE wants me to do some bourne shell scripting for him" but after I said "this" I was no longer on hold and he heard my true opinion of him. According to my friends he kept hinting that I must be a lucky guy that all these cute girls want to live with me (hint hint) and wanted to know what we would do if one of the girls found a Prince Charming and ran off and skipped on the rent (the lesbians muttered how about a Princess Charming? under their breath but he didn't hear them). I told the girls I would consider living there if they would walk around with me at around 9pm in the neighborhood of the house tonight, unarmed. I don't think they thought I was serious but I picked them up and I parked a block away from the house (it's an ok house, pretty large 2 story, cheap, the landlord painted over the murals), and we started strolling. There's an auto repair shop almost next to it, the sign says "auto repair, cheap!", except it's not really a sign, it's spraypainted onto the glass. There's a big hole in the glass except someone thoughtfully nailed a board over the hole, except the board is actually nailed into the glass, I didn't know you could do that. Other than that the neighborhood was ok, we ran into some young hoods on one end of the block, and when we walked around it they were coming at us again, they crossed to our side of the street and walked past us but didn't do anything to us. So we made it back to the car safely from our little field trip, I don't think I'll hear much about that house from the girls again.

The only thing I learned today is that Jet Li has this really high Mike Tyson type voice, which really isn't a problem since EVERYTHING is dubbed in later in kung fu movies so his voice is just one more thing to add in the mix. He's had the same guy be his voice for all of his movies not made on the Chinese mainland. You can probably hear his real voice in Shao Lin Temple if you can find a copy not dubbed with English voiceovers.!)

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